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Ok blogging world be nice to me. I want to create something that is a real view of my life. Not just my life but the life of my family and my friends who want to open up. Let me tell you about myself. I am married to my best friend for almost 7 years. Luke is seriously the only person in the world that understands me, and LOVES ME for my true self. I love him and am excited to continue our Lifes Journey Together. I have 3 wonderful children, who I completely love and adore. They are my life. My husband and I decided to take on the Army 5 years ago, and we love what it has given us. Honesty, it is a tough life to live being the ARMY WIFE, and the battle of being the, how can I say it right, being a single mom, when the Army decides to take my husband for months. Not just deployment, but schools, trainings, field trainings, staff duties, etc... Now I don't want you think I am complaining, ok maybe I am a little. But I really want you to see my life as I see it. Last year we decided to continue our journey in the Army and signed on again for 5 years. After that they stationed us in Germany. I have been trying to have faith in "Heavenly Fathers Plan for me" and not be bitter about moving here. I did not want to move here, I wanted everyone wants, My Own Home with the white picket fence, a chicken or two, the American Dream! So I am here living in Germany, a foreign land that I am slowly learning to love. Raising children who seem to have stronger opinions and thoughts then I ever did. Being the strong supportive military wife I need to be for my husband. And in all the craziness of life, all I see is a BIG MESS! Dishes Piled up, mountains of laundry that never shrink, floors that need to be vacuumed, hungry children, a husbands PERFECT EXPECTATIONS of ME! And then there is me... My family is my identity, but I feel I still have lost me. I battle daily with anxiety/depression, which I want to be open about. I see so many people who hide this, and I want to let everyone know that it is ok to share with others and not to be embarrassed about it. Some mornings I wake up and want to stay in bed all day. Not wanting to get up and do what seems to be the same thing everyday. Being a mom is seriously the hardest thing I have ever done, and if I don't do it right, it doesn't just effect me. So in this blog I want you to see me for me. I want to show my daily struggles and accomplishments.